Once upon a time, I had a dream. I want to be as beautiful as what the other girls are like. I wanna join the showbiz. It’s crazy. So I aim to slim down.. Giving myself a grace period of 3 months and restraint from many many food and snacks. And up til date I’ve shed off some already! =)
I dislike being me, I had low confidence though I pretended to be brave enough to protect myself. I had to act like another person just to survive in the society at times. Cos I had to be the one protecting others, to me that is the greatest happiness to see someone smile bcos u helped them. I know that I had to be smiling to not let my dear friends and family worry. I can hide in my room to cry at times. I am positive in thinking but negative at times. This is me. After writing this post, I realised that I knew myself even more. But that indicates that I’m drifting further from who I am in the past. Cheryl in the past cries easily, easily defeated by problems and relationship troubles, cried even when she heard somebody talked bad abt her. SO STUPID! Thank God for the change in me. I’ve grown tough and will not be defeated by sadness again.
And Mummy kept twisting her words..
Mummy: ” Cheryl ah~ U have to study finish your Poly and get Diploma before you can have a bf and realised your naive dream to sing. And 3 years after, which is now– Girl ah! U have to finish your Uni and get a degree before u can go out for competitions to realise your dreams.. ”
See.. they just love to lie.. Bleah! And actually I don’t wanna sound like a kid, but I really felt like a kid being protected by so many people around me. I’m just like a coral in the sea, I couldn’t move but had to stay there, and protected by the other creatures and the sea so as to stay alive?? I’m really different from what you guys think and what I think as well.
I had 2 sides of me. Sometimes, this side of me like to do something or like somebody; the other side of me hates the same thing and may not like the somebody, be it boys or girls. I’m a GEMINI. I strictly believe that was the reason that sculptured this fickle-minded character of mine.
“I can walk around the shopping mall without buying anything cos I hardly see things that I would fancy, or walk around the food court 3 rounds and haven’t decided on what to eat!? But once something caught my eyes, I’ll have my means to get it despite persuasions from others. Just stay strong in your own beliefs. U believe that yr choice is right, go ahead. Psycho others to trust your choice and let them understand how good it is. Though it just depends on ones’ ability and persuasion power.”
This song is very nice. I realised that I liked 丁当’s songs a lot. This song also triggers sad emotions. Just think that the lyrics are so meaningful =)
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