I envy my BFF En Noi, she gets to live in a hostel in NTU. She gets to live alone out there independently. And Best sister Yvonne was in Australia to pursue her studies and living alone there with her school Mates for 2 years! How fun could it be?! I missed times back when I went on a school trip in April 2010 to Japan with Yiling, Shimin and Shuni! Tokyo Disneyland! How I missed it so
Much!! Hope I can go on a holiday with my friends soon!

I’m still me, the silly me who haven’t really grown up to be Despicable me!! Lol. One must learn to be harsh to survive in this world mah.. I’m now graduating with a Diploma in Retail Management I’m happy and sad. Sad becos I dunno is the route in front of me shining brightly? When my SIT hasn’t called me up for an interview! Kinda sad..

Had fun at Marina Bay Sands again thanks to Penny Meagan who got a room for the Queens to play and had a fruitful 2D1N trip!!

Happy to have a chance to work in Starhub, met new colleagues who are friendly, and grateful that we get along well and still remain in contact though Jun Yang and Shari is not working there anymore 

Ruiyi and Fun Fun came to find me at work, my uniform is green, so Ruiyi said I look very outstanding from far though I’m Short, she can still spot me out of so many ppl in the MRT!! Arghh!! Lol >_<

I just realised that this MV is out already. The Run Devil Run Japanese Version.

Life gets busier and much more complex as one grows older..

These are some of my “art-pieces” since Year 2007 up til date..

Bits and pieces of card for my Aunts family..

Christmas present to Aunts, Grandma and Uncle

I drew the Doraemon for Wanling's bday last year!!

I really tried my extreme best, I admit my Art was lousy.. Haha!

Birthday card for my Dearest Bestie- "Alicia"

This is how it looks before adding the photos

Ruiyi will be coming back next Friday I supposed! Hope this coming birthday of hers in April will be an enjoyable one for her!!

I sewed this for fun =p

Yiling's bday present last year! I sewed by myself and add the iron-on to it

Wanling's birthday present last year, done by Linqi and me.. These tiny winy puzzles almost blinded us! Haha!

Memories of me and my room-mate in Japan; her bday card's photo! Fooey!!

I miss the weather and fun in Tokyo!! Hope Tokyo can be back to its original state real soon!

Me and brother when we were so young~~

Cooked spaghetti yesterday for my family at Grandma hse!!

It's so damn lot cos I'm cooking for 7 person! Lol

The best album I've ever bought!! SNSD's MV collections!!

Here’s a song that suits me I supposed?

P.S ~ Dear Bestie,

Thank you! I really appreciate your kindness to wanna help me get blessings from Taiwan, but its really alright, I don’t wish to take your luck away. Take it that I do not have the honour to receive the blessings kay? I hope you really enjoy your 9-days trip in Taiwan! Be back safely! I’ll miss you and pray hard for you to be safe there. Take care!

~~From bestie with love~ =)

Everyday I got different emotions. I’m very very upset and unhappy today! I’m so hot-tempered today. I’m so pissed off with the whole world today. And I felt unfairness and no freedom today. I just feel like hiding in a no man island today. It was a really bad day I want to do wad I like, and not feel restricted. I wanna shout out: I need FREEDOM! I dun like the feeling of being controlled. NO! No way!! I also hate people who struck my guilt. I hope SHE noes I’m already big enough to have my own ideas already. 不要跟我硬碰硬，我不吃这套的！到头来只会两败俱伤而已！Hmph >.< Sobs :’(

A note to a very very good friend

Hi my dear gal gal! I’ve known you for 9 years, like what you said. U may know me better than I know myself all along? U know what kind of troubles and surroundings I’ve been thru and my stories and all. U knew it first U always answer my calls when I need you. U never hesitate to lend me your listening ear. We are naughty, we quarrelled alot and fought hard back in Primary school. But when we have grown up, u are surprisingly my best buddy for the longest years. We don’t quarrel anymore. Haha! U can always come to me if u need a listening ear too. ** Ahh don’t cry.. Must be very touched to see this right? Hehe! U know I know what I mean can le, other ppl dunno its very OK =)

I dislike being me, I had low confidence though I pretended to be brave enough to protect myself. I had to act like another person just to survive in the society at times. Cos I had to be the one protecting others, to me that is the greatest happiness to see someone smile bcos u helped them. I know that I had to be smiling to not let my dear friends and family worry. I can hide in my room to cry at times. I am positive in thinking but negative at times. This is me. After writing this post, I realised that I knew myself even more. But that indicates that I’m drifting further from who I am in the past. Cheryl in the past cries easily, easily defeated by problems and relationship troubles, cried even when she heard somebody talked bad abt her. SO STUPID! Thank God for the change in me. I’ve grown tough and will not be defeated by sadness again.

And Mummy kept twisting her words..

Mummy: ” Cheryl ah~ U have to study finish your Poly and get Diploma before you can have a bf and realised your naive dream to sing. And 3 years after, which is now– Girl ah! U have to finish your Uni and get a degree before u can go out for competitions to realise your dreams.. ”

See.. they just love to lie.. Bleah! And actually I don’t wanna sound like a kid, but I really felt like a kid being protected by so many people around me. I’m just like a coral in the sea, I couldn’t move but had to stay there, and protected by the other creatures and the sea so as to stay alive?? I’m really different from what you guys think and what I think as well.

I had 2 sides of me. Sometimes, this side of me like to do something or like somebody; the other side of me hates the same thing and may not like the somebody, be it boys or girls. I’m a GEMINI. I strictly believe that was the reason that sculptured this fickle-minded character of mine.

“I can walk around the shopping mall without buying anything cos I hardly see things that I would fancy, or walk around the  food court 3 rounds and haven’t decided on what to eat!? But once something caught my eyes, I’ll have my means to get it despite persuasions from others. Just stay strong in your own beliefs. U believe that yr choice is right, go ahead. Psycho others to trust your choice and let them understand how good it is. Though it just depends on ones’ ability and persuasion power.”

This song is very nice. I realised that I liked 丁当’s songs a lot. This song also triggers sad emotions. Just think that the lyrics are so meaningful =)

“Cheryl, Can you for goodness sake treat yourself better for the sake of a better life and future? U always say you envy those girls who looks pretty and has a good figure? U wanna be as slim as those actresses?? But u never do anything to make this dream come true. If U never path out a way to success, how can you reach your goal and dreams? Just pray hard that u’ll be slim and grow tall someday to GOD?  U always complain that U are fat cos u had big bone structure? U think its true? NOPE! U are just comforting yourself to make yourself feel better whenever u grew a little plumper. U said you want to pursue your dreams, to be a star? Then, with this short and fat body of yours what can u do? Dream on lor.. Voice good also no choice cos u nv work hard towards your dreams. U are going to graduate soon.. People ask u what you wanna pursue after poly, U said u want to go to UNI.. Is that what u really want? You are not even not sure if u can make it not, right? U just said it cos U had no idea where to go and dun wanna believe that you are going into the society that fast. ~And after much scoldings and grievance, u know u should do something to help yourself to be a better person in life??~ ”

Yes peeps.. U must be wondering why should I think so badly of myself? And my answer is.. There’s this someone who have changed me.. I knew that if I nv change, I will nv get the kind of happiness I want in life, and I know that we can never move ahead if i’m still my usual self. ( I will set my determinations strong– to adopt the idea of running 2.4 km everyday and eat 2 meals of only soup stuffs, bee hoon or cornflakes and abandon the thought of eating fried food or rice or noodles. I will only be able to pursue my happiness and dreams after I learn to love myself and every side of me. )

Let’s wait ~ a month of countdown to a Different Cheryl~